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Thursday, May 10, 2007, Thursday, May 10, 2007
The end of the road.
Yesterday was the end of the road of faith for me.I poured out every ounce of faith I had and believed that it will happen.
Furthermore, everything was pointing towards the bright side so I firmly believed in this cause.
But, it was not to be.
Everything ended with a phone call and once again, I was portrayed as the one who had made a mistake in the first place. Well, I just want to say that it takes 2 hands to clap and make a sound so if a sound was made, surely it cannot be just 1 hand hitting the air right?
Devastated. Broken. Hurt.
I was so taken aback that after I ended the call, couldn't even think properly for about 20-30 mins. Until I decide to break the news to Justin. And even then, I couldn't shed a single tear, even though I was hurting so much on the inside.
Choir practice was my saving grace. I bit my lips and attended pract as usual and pretended nothing has happened. Went through the songs and learnt 2 new songs but as soon as we started to learn the worship song, the presence of God came so strongly that I started to tear..a trickle at a time..tried hard to conceal and managed to do so..until we worship and lingered in His presence..I just wept and wept somemore till I was still shaking but my tears ran dry.
I tried, prayed and believed but it failed.
But still God is always good. I am tired.
Cya.
me
