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Thursday, March 15, 2007, Thursday, March 15, 2007
Detox
Began my first day of detox today.
And naturally I didn't feel well because to suddenly abstain from something that I have been doing the past few weeks didn't go down well with my flesh; naturally. However, by taking a step back allows me to have a clearer perspective of things in my life especially certain areas. Although its painful and sometimes I just feel like giving up but in view of the long run and the bigger picture, I guess this is the right thing to do.
Why am I so certain? Because I told myself that if I want a different result, everything has to be done differently and with a different attitude. I want to see a different end result and outcome at the end of the day. This is beyond just identifying an opportunity and taking it but really, its about the aftermath of making that decision.
I need more wisdom and understanding friends.
How is that decision going to impact my life, my friends and eventually my walk with Him? I really don't know the eventual impact but I am trying my best to steer clear of grey areas because it's only when you are in the light that you are able to see your shadow and in a way see things clearer.
Light dispels darkness
Light casts shadows
Light defines sharp shadows
The stronger the light, the sharper the shadow.
I want to see His hand moving in my life and ultimately His provision coming to past. I am still waiting my friends and at times I can't help but to wonder what exactly am I waiting for? However, one thing I am clear is that I want to stand in the light.
In the past, I would have avoided the light at all costs; preferring to dwell in the grey undefined areas of my life; in short my comfort zone. But often I realise that the longer you dwell in the grey areas of your life, the blurrer your vision will get and soon you will lose your direction.
Clearly in my spirit now, I can continually sense that this is going to be the best year yet and already I am seeing things happening and forming in all aspects of my personal life. Revival is the word I will use to describe what I am feeling now.
Truly, time can heal all wounds but its only by His blood that can resurrect a dead man.
I have been praying for many things in my life and already doors are opening everywhere. I believe that as I remain faithful to Him and build His house, truly nothing will be impossible!
I want to make an impact!
I would like to think that I have found the perfect job or perfect partner but I believe that the most important thing to do is to wait for Him to show His will. Honestly speaking, if I had a choice, I would want to have the answers now but I can't. Because it's not up to me to control.
I can only ask and seek.
I can only plant and water.
I can only wait and wait further.
But I am glad that I only have 1 source to run to.
In due time and season, I will see all things coming to past for me.
I am expecting.
I am still waiting for You.
me
