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Tuesday, July 25, 2006, Tuesday, July 25, 2006
Unresolved Issues
Seeing them pack and prepare for the big festival today simply pains my heart and grieves my spirit.
Sometimes I just want to run away, move out or just simply shut down my emotions so that I don't feel anything. Many a times I feel like Psalmist David, always feeling that I am facing/fighting the battle alone.
Why can't all of them just wake up and realise that just by BEING A GOOD PERSON doesn't bring you to Heaven?
Why can't they just decide to remove the unwanted company in our home?
Does all that mean/matter so much to them?
Do they understand how I feel?
Do they? or
Do you?
Yes, I am frustrated. And thus from time to time, I just don't know what to say to them.
I would rather talk to a complete unrelated friend in church of their age than to talk to them.
I am TRYING TO HELP them!
I prayed, encouraged and cared for them.
Met their needs whenever they needed help.
Washed the car whenever I could.
Stood in the gap whenever they needed prayers.
But all they can say is "Thank You".
Why can't they just want to come to church and experience God for themselves?
Why can't they just stop all the suspicion among themselves?
Why can't they just stop all the backbiting and gossiping?
Why can't they just realise that life is not just about business and money?
Why?
Why?
Why?
God, I feel that I am stuck between the living and the dead.
God, I feel so lonely at times.
Do You know how I feel?
I tried to numb myself by distracting my mind to other things.
But...
I am just standing over a cliff now.
A slight push is all I need to drop.
But God, You said with You all things are possible.
You said when one in the household is saved, the entire household is saved.
You said that the effective fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much.
Didn't You?
God, help me. encourage me. strengthen me. so that I can get out of this vicious cycle of pain, hurt and anguish.
me
