Actually, I should be the happiest person around on Earth today because my prayers of getting into NIE were answered. And yes I should be like one of the many many teacher trainees looking forward to enter into this new phase of our lives on 26th July 2006. But the truth is; i am not. Yes you might be thinking now in your heart, what is so difficult about this? Since you prayed about this for 1.5 yrs and it came to past, grab it with both hands! Now, this is what happened; I prayed for NIE and admission into the Post Graduate Diploma Program or in short PGDE; but I was offered the Diploma in Education program.

The difference between this 2 courses is 1) the length of the course (1 yr vs 2 yrs) & 2) the gross monthly renumeration. So thats y I am in a dilemma now; to go or not to go. I told some of my close friends about it already and they told me to follow the peace of God to make this decision; i really appreciate their advice and if you happened to be one who adviced me; THANKS A LOT! APPRECIATE YOUR TIME SPENT LISTENING TO ME.

I prayed and seeked God during my QT the last few days; and in the meantime; continued to send out resumes to various schools and polytechnics in SG and by the grace of God; I am scheduled to go for 2 interviews (one tommorow evening at NUS and the other next tuesday at DMHS). God is really AWESOME you know; even in the midst of "i don't know what to do" state; He still provides me with an opportunity to consider and switch and make decisions.

I am really so very thankful to You God for all the things You have done and am doing in life till today. Without You, I would have already perished like the world in the ocean of cares and desires.

This time around, I am really stuck friends. On one hand, I don't want to make a decision that I will not be able to honour and fulfil for the next 5 yrs of my life (bond period for NIE); but on the other hand, I want to do God's will in my life; which is to teach and enter NIE. Just like what one of my friend said to me "Either God is lying or i am..."

So the former is NOT TRUE as all of us know that God doesn't lie. So did I hear wrongly from God that time and prayed for the wrong thing? But still God gives it to us; because when we stand upon His promises that "Ask and shall be given."..God cannot deny Himself and His promises.

I will continue to pray for a breakthrough in this area of decision making because God is my JEHOVAH JIREH!
One thing that I do know is that I will miss all of DMSS Sec 2E Classes...

Do keep me in your prayers that I will be able to come to a decision real soon; one that is guided by Him and Him alone.

Thanks!