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Monday, February 13, 2006, Monday, February 13, 2006
Tired yet refreshed
Tired yet refreshed. How can a person feel tired and yet refreshed? This could only happen when the person is filled with the Holy Spirit and immersed in His Heavenly Father's ever-lasting, ever-graceful presence every single day.
Actually the truth is; i am feeling tired physically. Don't know why but when i woke up this morning; just didn't feel like doing anything at all. My limbs are tired and weak. But spiritually i know i have learnt another lesson yet in my walk with God that nothing in life comes cheap or in fact; free. As i attended service on saturday and bible study on sunday afternoon, i have literally no time to rest and even exercise which i've planned on Sunday. However, i didn't realised that i have been having a feast on God's word for these 2 days and yesterday during bs, sis evenlyn shared that our faith should be built on God's word and placed in Him only.
Yes thats right; not even placing our total faith in our leaders above us. But only God.
Allow me to backtrack a little. During last friday's choir practice, when sis belle told us to pray and at the same time; to start to prophesise over our situation(s); to use bible verses as a spiritual sword to slay the demonic spirits and tear down strongholds in our minds
Lk 19:13 just flashed across my mind.
NKJV says
"So he called ten of his servants, delivered to them ten minas, and said to them, Do business till I come."
New Living Translation says
"Before he left, he called together ten servants and gave them ten pounds of silver to invest for him while he was gone."
As i went home and mediate on this verse; i begin to realise that God has asked me to invest and do business (ie trade and exchange) with the talents and gifts that He has given me in my life. I am called to live my life like the servant who was given 10 minas (ie 3 months of salary) and traded to get back 10 more. So many times, i feel inadequate when i sing during cellgroup and even during choir practice; afraid that i might go off key or can't hit a specific note. Though i have been attending practice and absorbing the skills which was taught, i recognise that a lot more hard work needs to be done before i can even sing properly.
Singing is not just humming a melody and blasting off. Singing requires you to think about the next note and how are you going to approach that note itself. Although i admire ppl who went through formal voice training with SCA or external companies, i believe that with sheer hardwork, i am able to make it too one day!
God's calling for my life cannot be invoked so easily. If He has called me to sing for Him and in His Name, reach out to congregation masses using my voice, there must be something more i can do for Him; my dear Heavenly Father; God.
Once i've saved up, i am getting a mp3 player with 2 new speakers so that i am able to record the different parts that we learn when we attend choir practice. But besides being excellent, i must pray for an increased level of annoiting in my life; because when a person is annoited with the Holy Spirit, work excellence comes along with it.
Every single weekend is like super packed and tiring but all i need is one moment in His presence, during worship; when tears flow out of my eyes; down my cheeks; the pressure within me is eased and released. My close friends would know i tear easily esp during services; why? because there are situations that i went through that only God knows. As worship comes, His presence comes like a blanket that is so soothing and i could just run into His presence and hide.
Have just been informed that one of my closest poly friends; yuwen is getting married on 12 May 2006! Really very happy for her!..haha!..time files i tell you..before we are discussing about when is our next project submission date and viola! now she is getting married!..haha..another close friend's wedding should be coming up soon too!
Myself? haha! well right now, just want to keep myself aligned and walk in His will for my life and live first a purpose driven life with excellence!
I've been reminded so many times; if there is no Jesus Christ; there would be no me.
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